My, how time flies

Jax turned 3 months old this weekend. In some respects it feels like I've always known him and he has always been a part of our family, and in some ways it feels like just yesterday that I was still pregnant and wondering WHEN he would come, what he would look like, what his personality would be, etc. He has turned my world upside down in so many good and amazing ways.

Every day I feel like I see some new thing that he is learning. He is teething already, which just seems unbelievable to me. Thankfully he's not too cranky and teething tablets have been a life saver in helping him sleep better. So really he just likes to drool and blow spit bubbles, and gnaw on everything he can get his hands on.

He is getting much greater head control. He has always had a strong neck, but now he likes to sit up. This morning he was in the bouncy seat and I caught him grabbing the toys attached to the bar that goes over the seat and trying to pull himself up. Unbelievable!

But he is so much fun these days because he laughs and giggles at things. He still likes to know where Miles & I are at all times and gets a little scared whenever he goes to someone new. I still haven't tried him in the church nursery. But that is coming soon too. Yesterday he was playing on his floor mat and I was walking around the living room cleaning and I noticed that he was tracking me everywhere I went. He had this look in his eyes that I can only describe as adoration or pure love. What a humbling moment. I want to remember that look for the rest of my life. This child, who we never thought we would have, loves me. He loves me. He thinks I'm the best thing in the world and right now I'm his favorite person. Wow. I love that feeling. But it's also humbling because I know that he adores me and I want to be the kind of mom to him (and Gabby) that is worthy of that adoration.

Speaking of Gabby, she still keeps Miles & I on our toes on a daily basis. I know that she has made so much progress in the last year and a half, but we are still battling her overwhelming need to control EVERYTHING. And she changes her control tactics almost daily so we also have to think on our feet. I am still doing some home schooling with her, but I have decided to really take it slow and not have much "formal" learning until she is about 6. Everything that I've read recently talks about the importance of play, imagination, exploring, being read to, etc. for this age. So if she shows an interest in something, I'll teach it to her. Otherwise we're going to spend our home school time doing crafts, reading books together, exploring, and doing imaginative play. Plus she still has so much emotional work to do and Miles & I agree that this needs to come first before her brain is really ready to learn. She still struggles with even being teachable (once again not wanting to give up control). But she has a great aptitude for memorization. So now that AWANA is over for the year, I am still doing scripture memory with her.

She has also made a new friend in our neighborhood. We first met our neighbor, Tina, last year when she came to our garage sale. She told us that she had a daughter Gabby's age. Then a few weeks ago we all ended up at the same birthday party and Gabby really hit it off with Tina's daughter Sophia. They only live a few doors down from us, so a few times a week Gabby is at their house or Sophia is at ours. It's great because the girls play so well together and it gives Tina and I both a break from time to time.

Last weekend we did respite for a 2 year old boy. Although things went well (although very busy!) it made me realize just how content I am with our family as it is now. I love that I can spend good quality time with both of my kids. I know our family is not yet complete, but I am no longer anxious about how God is going to bring another child to us. I am just excited to live out the story that HE has written for me. It's an amazing story already.